Sometimes I just feel like I'm living in a dream Sometimes I just feel like quitting, I still might Why do I put up this fight? Why do I still write? Sometimes it's hard enough just dealing with real life Sometimes I wanna jump on stage and just kill mics And show these people what my level of skill's like But I'm still white, sometimes I just hate life Something ain't right, hit the brake lights Can't see the stage right, draw on the plank like Got night blindness, it ain't my fault Great big eyeballs, my insides cracked And I clam up, I just slam shut, I just can't do it My whole manhood's just been stripped I've just been picked, so I must then get Hope the bus didn't split Man, *** this ***, yo, I'm going to *** home Roll on my shoulders as I run back to this hate my room I'm a man, I'ma make a new plan Time for me to just stand up and travel new land Time for me to just take matters into my own hands Once I'm over these tracks, man, I'ma never look back And I'm gone, I know right where I'm going Mama, I'm grown, I must travel alone And keep following the footsteps, I'm making my own Only way that I know how to escape from this hate my room Walking these train tracks, trying to regain back The spirit I had, before I go back to the same *** To the same plant, in the same pants Trying to chase rap, gotta move ASAP Get a new plan, mama's got a new man Poor little baby sister, she don't understand Sits in front of the TV, buries her nose in the pad And just colors until the crayon gets dull on her hand Watch the colors of big brother and mother and dad Ain't no telling what really goes on in her little head Wish I could be the daddy that neither one of us had But I keep running from something I never wanted so bad Sometimes I get upset, cause I ain't blew up yet It's like I grew up, but I ain't growing too nuts yet Don't gotta rap my step, don't got enough pep The pressure's too much, man, I'm just trying to do what's best And I try, sit alone and I cry Yo, I won't tell no lie, not a moment go by That I look right at the sky, please I'm begging you God Please don't let me be vision, holding a regular job Yo, I hope you can hear me, homie, wherever you are Yo, I'm telling you, girl, I'm bailing this trailer tomorrow Tell my mother I love her, kiss baby sister goodbye Said whenever you need me, baby, I'm never too far But yo, I gotta get out there, the only way I know And I'ma be back for you the second that I blow And everything I own, I make it on my own Off to work I go, back to this eight mile road I'm a man, gotta make a new plan Time for me to just stand up and travel new land Time for me to just take matters into my own hands Once I'm over these tracks, man, I'ma never look back And I'm gone, I know right where I'm going Sorry, mama, I'm grown, I must travel alone Ain't gonna follow no footsteps, I'm making my own Only way that I know how to escape from this gate, my own You know I'm living to fill it, you didn't, you wouldn't get it Well, see what the big deal is, why it wasn't as still as To be walking this borderline of Detroit city limits It's different, it's a certain significance A certificate of authenticity, you'd never even see But it's everything to me, it's my credibility You've never seen, heard, smelled a matter from them, see Who's incredible up on the same pedestal as me But yet, still unsigned, having a rough time Still on the porch with all my friends and kid gum rhymes Go to work and serving C's in the lunch line But when it comes crunch time, where do my punch lines go? Who must I show to bust my flow? Where must I go, who must I know? Or am I just another crab in a bucket Cause I ain't having no luck with this little rabbit's foot bucket Maybe I need a new outlet, I'm starting to doubt *** I'm feeling a little skeptical who I hang out with I look like a bum, yo my clothes ain't about *** At the Salvation Army trying to salvage an outfit And it's cold, trying to travel this road Plus I feel like I'm overstuck in this battling mode My defenses are so up, and one thing I don't want Is pity from no one, this city is no fun There is no sun, and it's so dark Sometimes I feel like I'm just being pulled apart From each one of my limbs, by each one of my friends It's enough to just make me want to jump out of my skin Sometimes I feel like a robot, sometimes I just know not What I'm doing, I just blow, my head is a stove top I just explode, the kettle gets so hot Sometimes my mouth just overloads the acid I don't got But I've learned, it's time for me to U-turn Yo, it only takes one time for me to get burned Ain't no fallin' no next time I meet a new girl I can no longer play stupid and be immature I got every ingredient, all I need is the courage Like I already got the beat, all I need is the words Got the urge, suddenly it's a surge Suddenly a new burst of energy has occurred Time to show these free world leaders a three and a third I am no longer scared now, I'm free as a bird Then I turn and cross over the median curve Hit the burbs and what you see is a blur I make my own rules I'm a man, gotta make a new plan Time for me to just stand up and travel new land Time for me to just take matters into my own hands Once I'm over these tracks, man, I'ma never look back And I'm gone, I know right where I'm goin' Sorry mama, I'm grown, I must travel alone Ain't gonna follow no footsteps, I'm makin' my own Only way that I know how to escape them is take my own Thanks for watching!