Yeah, I guess it's about that time, you know The car, just let it run, uh Party in a penthouse, top has to *** out Reminiscing being broke, I'm hoping I would Fast forward, that was then, I switched my perspective I was supposed to make it here, this wasn't luck, it was destiny Why the *** am I surprised? Will I ever feel I belong here? Spilling my soul right now, the story gets long here Been waiting for this album to drop, it's been a long year Feel like it's been forever, the *** has been going on here? *** plus drugs plus rock and roll, add it That equation mixed with success and raw talent They talk about me, think I went crazy, goddammit Woo, I really went crazy, goddammit Pull the curtain, there's nothing left here to hide behind I come with baggage, I'm complicated, you know my sign Try to fathom in what happens inside my mind Intoxicated on substances, I've been trying to find a Reason to change, I find a reason to rage Plans and wars and ***ing people estranged Deal with it, I'm wild, there's no keeping me in a cage They try to buy my soul, but it's not an even exchange I just had an epiphany, I'm top ten in this industry He knew the end result, and what would you have done differently? My jackal and my heart look like anything here but symmetry But I ain't looking for nobody's sympathy This for the kids who buy tickets, this for the fans of the music This for the kids who get some inspiration from me and use it This for myself, they jot this out, it's all therapeutic But I never lost myself, so don't you ever confuse it Reading comments on my gram, I'm like, damn, they really gotta at me What happened to the OG, this sucks, won't you come back, G? You said you'd never be that rapper, this *** is tacky I make what I wanna make, but I won't make everyone happy My skin's thick, but I'm not bulletproof Try to numb myself like when you going to pull a tooth All I can do is be myself, go and tell the truth I feel like I'm with my therapist when I'm in the booth Listen, I'm in my own lane, so what do I have to hurry for? The bae love me, they root for me like when Curry score I gotta cover, relax, you ain't gotta worry more I turned the corner, made a block, now I'm broke and I'm 30's door Exes ask me out, we ain't feeling the same One of them went on national TV, jogging my name Wish you would've handled it, eh, mm I can't complain, cause you don't get to choose how people react to being in pain, yeah, *** Lesson learned, we weren't the perfect match Future raps not keeping personal and work attached We came a ways from going to juvie of a person snatched Bob mobs a berk and we still only seen the surface scratch, wow Been tryna search and find the perfect high Young Stoner from Berkeley high to person high Became so little different, guess we work and try She kick me out to get the bird to fly, yeah This the maturation of Jerry Been terrified of commitment, can't understand why it's scary The deeper that I get, this *** gets harder to say Why the ones who love me most, the people I push away? Why the ones who love me most, the people I push away? Why the ones who love me most, the people I push away? Yeah, look in the mirror, this is you No one ever told me these things happen too Yeah