I could barely rap, I could barely dance, I could barely laugh, I could barely hang into the mail strip or do a belly dance With me and my boyfriend, it's entertainment, I'm drunk as ***, my n***a sucks up Need a reason to give my bucks up, need a reason to care about society Need a good enough reason just to hire me, but honestly, you see, my mom can't walk And my lungs don't work the way they used to, and I feel like it's my fault cause of music I be saying *** that's just ***ing rude and un-truant, but truthfully Your words have damage and it's cruel to me, but even more cruel to be This ain't you in front of n****s that pay to hear me Sometimes I be wondering why I be tripping off of that ***, probably spend my time Riding rides that the dentist all possess, killing two birds in one stone When I was younger, way before I was grown, I wanted to deal with Devro, my rhyme sayers I'm saving my time for Mike Slater, I might save it, depending on the *** that y'all write later I hate writers, I hate tweets, I hate journalists They hate truth, they hate peace, they want my n****s to burn to *** Flickin' on the face of my wristwatch, watch the time stop just to speed up Watch life unfold in between the TikToks, speed it down the one way *** these signs, *** these lights, put my life on the line When it feel right, I'm fine, no I'm not lying, don't ask me I pay the fine, I pay the toll, just hope I don't crash it But hey, if I do, it would be a blaze of glory Engulfed by the manifestation of death behind me All my life I've felt inadequate, and through the years I've dealt with Tragedy after tragedy, God sent a message, sent a message on my way Never claimed to be a saint, forgive me Feel like the light that I was blessed with has diminished I'm haunted by the visions of my youth, turned true I've come to expect my expectations aren't true But I'm a master of believing my lies And you can't break me, and I can't break at the speed of light I'm afraid to share the bed with if she want money later Like she got laid off, uh, hit my lawyer for some paper I'm afraid this be my pains, like you lucky where you at You cool, but quit complaining about all that That's why I'm showing up late I'm not trying to be a dick, but my time is not to waste For my shelf, for the small talk with my sensei, where my sense at? Four cylinder go round, Lincoln town car pick me up Drop me off, I got bubble under my biceps Sneak me into the sidestep, ego is getting sized up I be on butterfly phase, *** it, I'll be myself now Tell em I take no *** now, tell em they work for me now Tell em my tears they bleed down, tell em I work like What, what time for me now? Wondering who is me now? Wondering where you been now? Lose you in crowd I see now 14 I see em all inside of me now Make it count, move like speeds now Making from waste to feed now Making a waste to be everything, but right now It's crazy how things do the best when remnants sin till we check ourselves It's crazy how people who less than they feel left out when we step for help Still accustomed to the night, so it's silent too I don't always remember to call goodnight I don't always remember my altitude I don't always remember to stop to fight But I might check my sight, it ain't right Yeah I know, but my strike overwhelms every night Until I'm forced to close my eyes, break the seas Parasite eating me from inside Oceans bleed, I can't believe how I'm slipping through the night Parasite