Back in elementary, I thrived on misery Left me alone, I grew up amongst a dying breed Inside my mind, couldn't find a place to rest Until I got that thug life tatted on my chest Tell me, can you feel me? Am I living in the past? You wanna last? Be the first to blast, remember Cato? No longer witnessing deceits, call on the sirens Seen a murderer in the streets, may I rest in peace? Is there heaven for a G? Remember me? So many homies in the cemeteries, shed so many tears I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many pigs, and shed so many tears Now that I'm struggling in this business, by any means Label me greedy, getting green, but seldom seen And *** the world, cause I'm cursed, I'm having visions I'm leaving here in a hearse, God, can you feel? Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain Show me some happiness again, I'm going blind I spent my time in a cell, ain't living well I know my destiny is hell, but did I fail? My life is in denial, and when I die Baptized in eternal fire, shed so many tears Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many pigs, and shed so many tears Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer To embrace an early death, now there's nothing left There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest I'm barely standing, about to go to pieces, screaming peace And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it I had my mind full of demons, trying to break free They planted seeds, and they hatched, sparking a flame Inside my brain, like a match, such a dirty game No memories, just a misery Painting a picture of my enemies, killing me in my sleep Will I survive till the morning, and see the sun? Please, Lord, forgive me for my sins, cause here I come Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears God, I lost so many peers, and Lord knows I tried Been a witness to homicides, and drive-bys taking lives Little kids die, wonder why as I walk by Broken hearted as I glance at the chalk line, getting high This ain't the life for me, I wanna change But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game I'm trapped inside a maze, see this tangeray Influence me to getting crazy, disillusioned lately I've been really wanting babies, so I can see a part of me That wasn't always shady, don't trust my lady Cause she's a product of this poison, I'm hearing noises Say she's ***ing all my boys, can't take no more I'm falling to the floor, begging for the Lord To let me into heaven's door, shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears Lord, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears God, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears