Back in elementary, I thrived on misery Left me alone, I grew up amongst a dying breed Inside my mind, couldn't find a place to rest Until I got that thug life tatted on my chest Tell me can you feel me, am I living in the past? You wanna last, be the first to blast Remember Kato, no longer witnessing deceits Call on the sirens, seen the murdered in the streets Now rest in peace, it's dead heaven for a G Remember me, so many homies in the cemetery Shed so many tears I suffered through the years and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many pigs and shed so many tears Now that I'm struggling in this business By any means, label me greedy Getting green, but seldom seen And leave the world cause I'm cursed, I'm having visions I'm leaving here in a hearse, God can you feel me? Take me away from all the pressure and all the pain Show me some happiness again, I'm going blind I spent my time in a cell, ain't living well I know my destiny is hell, but did I fail? My life is in denial, and when I die Baptized in eternal fire, shed so many tears Lord, I suffered through the years and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many pigs and shed so many tears Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me My every move is a calculated step, to be me closer To embrace an early death, now there's nothing left There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest I'm barely standing, bout to go to pieces, screaming peace And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it I had my mind full of demons, trying to break free They planted seeds and they hatched, sparking the flame Inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game No memories, just a misery Painting a picture of my enemies Killing me in my sleep Will I survive till the morning to see the sun? Please Lord forgive me for my sins, cause here I come Lord, I suffered through the years and shed so many tears God, I lost so many pigs and Lord knows I tried Been a witness to homicides and drive-bys, taking lives, little kids die Wonder why as I walk by, broken hearted as I glance at the chalk line getting high This ain't the life for me, I want to change But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game I'm trapped inside a maze, see this tangaray influence me They're getting crazy, disillusioned lately I've been really wanting babies, so I can see a part of me That wasn't always shady, don't trust my lady Cause she's a product of this poison, I'm hearing noises Think she's shitting on my boys, can't take no more I'm falling to the floor, begging for the Lord to let me into heaven's door Shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many pigs and shed so many tears I lost so many pigs and shed so many tears Lord, I lost so many pigs and shed so many tears God, I lost so many pigs and shed so many tears