I'll keep the pictures saved in a safe place while I look so weird here. My face has changed now, it's a big shame. So many feelings struggling to leave my mouth and it's not that rare for me to let myself down in a big way. But I had enough time and I found enough reason to accept that it's not the same anymore. I lost the joy in my face, my life was simple before, I should be happy of course. But things just got much harder, now it's just hard to ignore, it's not the same anymore. It's not the same anymore. It's not the same but it's not a shame cause I spent a long time putting up with people putting on my best face. It's only normal when you start things in the wrong way. It's only 4 o'clock and still it's been a long day, I just wanna hit the hay. People knocking on me like every day, I'm tired of taking stress. If only there could be another way, I'm tired of feeling suppressed. When they want me the most, I'm tired of acting like I care, but I do and I can't wait to hit the bed but tomorrow makes me scared cause it's not the same anymore. I lost the joy in my face, my life was simple before, I should be happy of course. But things just got much harder, now it's just hard to ignore, it's not the same anymore. It's not the same anymore. I kept the feelings inside, I open up when *** gets built up this high, she makes it easy to cry, the words fall out of me and there's no more disguise. I miss the days when I was someone else, I used to be so hungry, right now my stomach's full of hell and I've spent many months just hating on myself, I can't keep wishing things would be different or leaving problems on the shelf, I wish I didn't need to get help, but I do, but I do. I've been so hard on myself, even my family can tell and they barely saw what I felt, I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else, it's not the same, it's not the same, it's not the same, it's not the same as before, it's not the same anymore, and it's fine because... I've learned so much from before, now I'm not sure on advice, there's no excuses at all, no point in feeling upset, won't take my place on the floor, I'll stand up straight like I'm tall, it's up to me, no one else, I'm doing this for myself, it's not the same anymore, it's better, it got better, it's not the same anymore, it's better. It's better, it got better, it's not the same anymore, it's better. It's better, it got better, it's not the same anymore, it's better.