I wish I had the honor For my enemies So that you will hurt So much more I never dream because I'm never asleep I don't get thirsty in the water And I swim to *** teeth The fire ignites the sky I never got the chance to say goodbye This has to be A terrible dream This is a defense mechanism Our minds are playing tricks on us We have left the boundaries Of the observable universe I can't think I can't run My mind wouldn't hold I want to disappear Deep irritated I'm sorry I wish I waited In a dead of hope Not knowing why you weren't at home Apologies unheard I live I die by your word Apologies unheard I live I die by your word Apologies unheard I live I die by your word I walk this path alone Much further away I wish I had the honor For my enemies So that you will hurt So much more I breathe in the smoke Deeply intoxicated Like death in a smoke