You I'm scared of swimming in the sea dark shapes moving under me every fear i swallow makes me small inconsequential things occur alarms are triggered memories stir it's not the way it has to be and i do not know i hate being undermined i'm afraid i can be devil man and i'm scared to be devised when i allow it to be there's no control over me i have my fears but they do not have me walking through the undergrowth to the house words the deeper i go the darker it gets knock at the door and the monster i was so afraid of is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy i cry until i love i'm afraid of seeing my neck with my balls shot in the head i'm afraid of loving women and i'm scared of loving men flashbacks coming in every night don't tell me everything's all right when i allow it to me it has no control over me so it doesn't me i'm walking through the undergrowth the deeper i call i peer through the window knock at the door and the monster i was so afraid of lies curled up on the floor is curled up on the floor just like a baby boy i cry until i love i'm afraid of seeing my neck with my balls shot in the head i'm afraid of loving men flashbacks coming in every night don't tell me everything's all right right