Shadows swimmin' in my head lately, but I don't mind See, I'm not gonna let me go crazy, not this time I'm goin' through changes, I'm gon' make it for sure I'm goin' through changes that I've been here before I haven't stepped out of my house in seven days Haven't shaved, haven't showered, haven't changed Same clothes, different day, another good morning pissed away Ayy, got the whole world lookin' right at me Actually, feels like people startin' to look past me I've been around, feels like this just might be our last dance I'm frustrated, I'm past tense, I still don't feel like I has been I don't but, it's like a ghost town up in the studio Nobody comes around here no more, I guess it's just how the movie go Uh, I don't like playin' my old friends new songs They don't listen to rap like back when They all grew up, kinda moved on And how could I blame them, huh? I used to sleep, eat, and breathe this *** But now the older I get, I'm questionin' if I really needed this I used to stress what people said and what people thought about me Now I worry about if my daughter can make it home from school without me But still at the same time, as I'm writin' this rhyme I'm in my kitchen, my daughter's tryin' to tell me about a day I hear her but not really listenin', I'm starin' at her But in my head, I'm puttin' these words together I know that I need to do better Cause what I do now could change forever Shadows swimmin' in my head lately But I don't mind See, I'm not gonna let me go crazy I'm not this type I'm goin' through changes, I'm gon' make it for sure It's a fall from paradise I'm goin' through changes and I've been here before And I know, I'm so indecisive these days And musically, I feel confused, don't know what I'm like in these days I just take the time to check all the new *** Plus all of the drugs they doin' And I know I'm a hypocrite, I smoke these blips only cause Snoop did Glad it was just weed, but even with that I'm noticin' I'm losin' my passion, I'm gettin' too high, it's harder to focus with And all of my part head friends, they take pride in it, pride in it And all my alcoholic friends, denyin' it, denyin' it And all my coke head friends, they still hidin' it, hidin' it I'm just hopin' all of us survive this ***, survive this *** Damn, I was never too good at showin' emotions I get awkward at serious times, uncomfortable in genuine moments I ain't big on givin' hugs, I use this music to show my love That's why it's so important, but lately it don't seem so rewarding Something's changed Shot of swimmin' in my head lately, but I don't mind See, I'm not gonna let me go crazy, not this time I'm down with rule changes, I'm gon' make it for sure It's a fall from paradise I'm down with rule changes, and I've been here before Let's go They told me call it a day, they told me maybe that's it Then I get these messages from my fans who tell me don't ever quit Cause my music saved their life, like literally They heard my song on the way to the train tracks And somethin' I said's the reason they came back I used to convince my fans, just give me a chance But now they're the ones convincin' me, now they're the ones convincin' me And I used to convince the fans to believe in me and my truth And now my fans believe in me, maybe more than I do Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh