My fate is painstaking, I run away Hoping that I run until I make it Maker, am I just forsaken? Ready to bust my load because I do not have no patience Calling all my foes, it's going straight up to the tomb Like I'm stuck in danger in the parish catacombs Seeing stuff that isn't, turn the light on and it's gone As above, so below, I am lower than low And I don't wanna know what I'm drinking, there's no antidote Just shut me up and shut me down And I don't wanna know what I'm drinking, there's no antidote Just shut me up and shut me down My life is far from basic, the emptiness around it Finding ways to feel it unfulfills a natural feeling As I battle mental illness, often clashing with my brilliance Now I'm no smoking reefer, till ashes tumble down under my sneakers My fear and anxiety's off the meters, the only thing I know is I don't know So into the unknown, *** is getting rocky with touchstone And I don't wanna know what I'm drinking, there's no antidote Just shut me up and shut me down And I don't wanna know what I'm drinking, there's no antidote Just shut me up and shut me down My life is straight racing, I speed away, hoping that I lost whoever's chasing Chaser, he is always leading, ready to use my knives if he gets closer, I'm just waiting I cannot stay neutral, I *** my clutch Do I go forward or do I back up? Do I lay down or do I just stand up? The only thing I know is that I don't know And I don't wanna know what I'm drinking, there's no antidote Just shut me up and shut me down And I don't wanna know what I'm drinking, there's no antidote Just shut me up and shut me down And shut me down And shut me down