I am a walking contradiction, reality is ditching, completely delusional in my own depiction. I will change just like the seasons, get upset for no damn reason, my *** up disposition only guarantees ***. Nothing ever works out, every hour is going down, a stranger in my situation makes me wanna shout out. I don't wanna be like this, be like this, be like this. I am fully conditioned, full of suspicion, narcissistic piece of trash, unworthy of existence. Can't get out of my own way, can't get out of my own way, suppress my feelings and pretend it's okay. Forever swimming upstream, it all seemed like a big dream, a lifeless situation that makes me wanna scream. I don't wanna be like this, be like this, be like this. I don't wanna be like this, be like this, be like this. I don't wanna be like this, be like this, be like this.