I wouldn't call this happy, but it's something I wouldn't call this blissful, but it's something I'm cleaner than I was, than I was Cleaner than I was, thought I would've pulled the plug by now Thought I would've pulled the plug by now You waited, I waited too You waited, I waited too I could've been a cowboy, could've been a rockstar, could've been an astronaut Could've been a doctor, could've been a boxer, could've played basketball I wouldn't call this happy I call it alcohol, wouldn't call it lonely I call it nothing at all Call it apathy, call it atrophy Lonely all the time now Lonely all the time now Anxious all the time now Bored out of my mind, thought I would've pulled the plug by now You waited, I waited too You waited, I waited too I could've been a cowboy, could've been a rockstar, could've been an astronaut Could've been a doctor, could've been a boxer, could've played basketball I would've pulled the plug by now