�� Richard ��� MBC you're crazy ��� Dealing with this pain is never easy �� Tryna hold your head but I can't reach it �� And I've been losing all my breath �� I'm barely breathing �� I'm distant from your love so I can barely see it �� And I just want some trust but your love is deceiving �� And I can never change �� Focus on myself because I go through pain �� I have left you all alone and I know that I'm shamed �� Tryna foster peace on this plane �� I'm tryna love on you but your love is never the same �� To tell the truth a nigga really been broke �� I'm distant from your love and I'm losing all my hope �� I'm tryna smoke up on these jokes so I can cope �� And it makes it worse I think I'm sinking through the floor �� And I'm tryna be the same but this pain keep on creeping �� I'm tryna listen to this music tryna avoid all my demons �� And I know I'm staying strong tryna be the same but I'm hollow �� And I've been tryna foster peace while I lay on my own �� I'm tryna be the same but I'm a victim of pain �� You say that you want me but I know your intentions they never change �� You have left me all alone how the *** can I be shamed �� You have broke my heart now I've been tryna with this pain is never easy �� Tryna hold your head but I can't reach it �� And I've been losing all my breath �� I'm barely breathing �� I'm distant from your love so I can barely see it �� And I just want some trust but your love is deceit �� Note to self I've been by myself I'm all alone �� And you know that I'm hurt so why would you do me wrong �� And I've been by myself thinking is your love ever gonna help �� And I rap about this pain cause I'm broken �� Cold hearted nigga that's what I chose �� Scared of change don't wanna go back to the old �� And I'm tryna be the same but that pain keep on hurting �� And I want your love but it be hurting �� Why you had to do me wrong �� Why you gotta lie �� You can see the truth from in my eyes �� And I've been hurt and don't ask me why �� And I've been scarred and I cannot hide �� To tell the truth I'm tired of all this pain �� And I just wanted to go away �� But I know I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for this pain �� But at the same time I'm scared of change �� Cause all this pain is in my system and it's in my veins �� Dealing with this pain is never easy �� Tryna hold your head but I can't reach it �� And I've been losing all my breath �� I'm barely breathing �� I'm distant from your love so I can barely see it �� And I just want some trust but your love is deceiving �