Go ahead and call me a coward, say that I'm not strong because I'm not like you Go ahead and call me crazy cause I live in a maze, tell me how about you I think I live in my head, sometimes I think that I'm dead, I hide behind my youth Know I've been losing my mind and I'm a little behind, step aside my shoes Cause I've never been happy with myself and I don't need no one feeling bad for me Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me Want to give me advice and then laugh at me behind closed doors Just close the door and let me be by myself, just me and myself I'm tired of living, I cry, I hear it's easy to die, I want to see for myself And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else but I'm depressed as ***, stressed as *** Ain't no medicine that can cure what's intense, it's drugs I need I need extra love and that ain't even enough, said that ain't even enough and where the *** is God Maybe I ain't believing enough, but today we gonna see if he's real And if he is then I guess I'm probably going to hell Look I ain't wanna die like this, I ain't picture my life like this They don't know what it's like like this, pretending I'm happy so I can smile like this And laugh like you, sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like ooh Or would you feel lost without me, cause honestly I think the world is better off without me And my mind's spinning, this is the line, finish Truth is I don't care how they feel about my feelings, I made up my mind I'm going out like Robin Williams, I guess I'm not the ordinary people of John Legend And I've been suicidal since the day I was nine, ***, okay the day I was nine I've been tired of being bullied, cuz, stay out the fire Grandma told me I should take it one day at a time and dammit look at me now Oh ***, ***, pen running out, *** Damn, look, just know it's a new day, but if you're reading this then it's probably too late But, just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighting on me I don't wanna let this be another day, I'm sorry But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighting on me Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighting on me I don't wanna let this be another day, I'm sorry But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighting on me I hope you got what you wanted, I hope you're finally happy, it's too late for you They're going out of my mind, you don't know how many times that I done prayed for you I hope you hear me, goddammit, cuz I got so much *** that I wanna say to you I used to shine, now I'm all in the dark, I remember I used to tell you to follow your heart But goddammit, look at you now, it's all of your fault, how could you? Maybe it's my fault, I should've paid more attention to what you been doing Maybe I should've been more of an influence, I can't believe that you're dead, I *** I read your letter and all I could do is have mixed feelings about it But I'll forever be attached to you, damn Part of me feels bad for you, a part of me feel like you weak and I'm mad at you And I don't mean to be insensitive, but I don't understand how we couldn't prevent this *** You took the easy way out, goddammit, you get it, I mean, look what you get I'm too ***ing upset, how could you be so selfish? Nigga, how could you be so selfish? Now you're gone, you done left me so helpless I wonder what god thinks, I hope you're at god's place behaving yourself Yo, what the *** you gotta say for yourself? Look, I really feel lost without you I hate the fact you think the world is better off without you And my mind's pitted, this is a line finish Truth is, I don't care how you feel about my feelings And I'd be lying to you if I told you I'm violent Listen, I know that you can hear me, all I need is like five minutes I just wanna reach inside the casket and pull you out Sorry, this is something that we both couldn't figure out I wish I could hear you now, is your soul missing? I wonder if you could do it again, would you do it different? Tell me what death is like Was it meant for you, brody? Did the heavens support it? Are you ***ing happy now? Did you get what you wanted? Isn't this what you wanted? I feel the temperature falling And you've been suicidal back then, you were not Yeah, even back then, you was not We was living on the edge, couldn't stay out the fire Grandma told us we should take it one day at a time And dammit, look at you now But it's a new day And if you can't hear me, then it's probably too late ***! Just make sure you tell my family It's okay, I'm sorry But it's too late, I'm sorry So much waiting on me I don't wanna let this be another day I'm sorry, but I can't stay I'm sorry, so much waiting on me Just make sure you tell my family It's okay, I'm sorry But it's too late, I'm sorry So much waiting on me I don't wanna let this be another day I'm sorry, but I can't stay I'm sorry, so much waiting on me Just make sure you tell my family It's okay, I'm sorry But it's too late, I'm sorry So much waiting on me I don't wanna let this be another day I'm sorry, but I can't stay I'm sorry, so much waiting on me Just make sure you tell my family It's okay, I'm sorry But it's too late, I'm sorry So much waiting on me I don't wanna let this be another day I'm sorry, but I can't stay I'm sorry, so much waiting on me