I thought I wanted love Till you showed me what it was I've never been colder All this weight that I shouldered It's a blessing and a curse For the better it's only worse Wouldn't wish this on no one It's one hell of a load We goin' up, we goin' down We could run it back, we could work it out But, no Late at night, goin' out my mind Prayin' that the sun don't rise Like, no Wakin' up, but wishin' I had you down It's somethin' that I pray you'll never know Up at night, drinkin' liquor like it's water Wakin' up, know I'm not somebody's daughter, but I don't know a lot about my father Maybe that's the reason I don't do shit like I oughta know I need some medicine, this shit in my head is in Got me thinkin', questionin', layin' in this bed I'm in Up at night, drinkin' liquor like it's water Maybe that's the reason I don't do shit like I oughta know Wakin' up, but wishin' I had you down It's somethin' that I pray you'll never know You might love the highs, but you ain't seen the lows You don't know the half of it, and I pray you'll never know Wakin' up, but wishin' I had you down It's somethin' that I pray you'll never know You'll never know, you'll never know You'll never know