When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags Thinking I wish I could extrapolate some small intention Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two Will I die or will I get to that ten-year mark Where I beat the extinction of telomeres And if I do, will you be there with me Brother, sister, brother Charlie, stop smoking Caroline, will you be with me Will the baby be alright Will I have one of mine Can I handle it even if I do They said that my mind is not fit But so they said to carry a child I guess I'll be fine It wasn't my idea, the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside But without them I'd die They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy I see nothing creaking in Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island With dad and grandma, grandpa and Dave Who hung himself real high In the National Park sky, it's a shame In the crying rain, I'll forget to you, save you If I take my lamp, find your astral body Let it into my arms, give you two seconds to cry Take you home, I'll give you a blanket, your spirit Can sit and watch TV by my side Cause baby, I ran through a time when I felt you were doing it I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone I had to sing for the prince in two hours I sat in the shower, gave myself two seconds to cry It's a shame that we died When I was fifteen, naked next door neighbors did a drive-by Pulled me up by my waist, long hair to the beach side I wanted to go out like you, swim with the fishes That he caught on Rhode Island beaches But sometimes it's just not your time, Caroline What kind of fool was she to say I'd end up in institutions All I wanted to do was kiss Erin Green and sit by The lake twisting lime into the drinks that they made Have a baby at sixteen, the town I was one in and died Erin ended up dead, not me With a fox rung in your head to send me away Never to come back Exotic places and people Don't take the place of being your child I give myself two seconds to cry Let it crash over me, like the waves in the sea Call me Aphrodite As they bow down to me Sunbather, moonchaser, queen of empathy I give myself two seconds to breathe Go back to being the swearing queen I just needed two seconds to be Thanks for watching!