Am I that I am sorry, I never have become Because I'm afraid to disavow Oh-oh, oh-oh, or not And I've been feeling like I don't matter How I used to be And I've been feeling like I don't matter How I used to be We were sat outside on the hardwood floor With our feet in dirt and our hearts in a rocky Losing sleep thinking about missed calls And I see the names circling our thoughts And I think about if we lose it all And I turn to *** that you never want And I don't smoke or drink anything at all And I say again, sorry, I don't call There's no money on my mind, but my money on my mind was the first to fall I never wanted this *** And I've been feeling like I don't matter How I used to be And I've been feeling like I don't matter How I used to be Sometimes it be so spot on it hurts Like my auntie couldn't decide between going to work or church I've been in my feelings on that island in the dirt I feel like brothers lie just so my feelings don't get hurt I said I'll try vacation, I'll try to run away I deleted Facebook, I'll trade fame any day For a quiet Texas place and a barbecue plate I'll switch my place if that's good for ya Is that good for ya? My goals still haunt ya My life is odds on ya A big eyed monster, only face to conquer I hated songs about fame cause that stuff meant nothing Until the mad lines came, the first flight I'm stuck in Maybe it means nothing but I have to say I think about you often And if you want to walk with me, I'll walk away I know that I have grown with you Maybe it means nothing but I have to say I think about you often And if you want to walk with me, I'll walk away I know that I have grown with you I took a plane to somewhere that I've never been Too many times without my sister and my brother Dad or mother by my side but they're in spirit I always hear it, I know they feel it My mama always had these dreams that used to keep her up at night I swore to keep them all away and make use of the time I'm bored of feeling The reasons I'm so out of touch now start revealing But I'm not ashamed, I'm not afraid of who I am or how I trust my mental Yeah it's not perfect but I guess that's just the *** I'm into I fantasize about a time when everything was simple My shelter sheltered me from things I needed to commit to The way it stands to me, a victim of Stockholm and my friendships and family What's costing you time? What's the reason that you whine? What's in your wallet? Dead whites and mines So sour in this light of lime Daddy says study or get that cash Mommy said your career ain't gon' last News change, color cap, move out their path I just need a chance to move past my past Don't think too fast, private jets still crash And I still fly coach, and I still hit a roach And I still see roaches at the crib where my folks stay Touch your dreams before you touch me and provoke a man Somebody gonna have to tell the truth and I'm gonna tell it I will Can I tell you how? Can I tell you now? Can I tell you how?
