Tuesday 23rd of January 2018. I'm here with David. This is our first session. We're just going to talk about your background, where you're from, any issues you've been dealing with. So where should we start? Look, stop all the pain. How do you stop all the pain, huh? I used to hear a voice when I was praying but nowadays I don't even want to be saved. Nah, *** that, I don't want to be saved. I was born to be wild, I don't want to be tame. Talent's in my blood and I don't want to be vain. But if I'm a psycho then I don't want to be sane. I used to dream of this *** when I was hopping on train. So, so bad I used to want all the fame. My ex-girl want to shoot a cover for Vogue, which is pretty ironic cause she's popular range. If any one of you take a shot on the track, my niggas come back and put the shot in your frame. Easy as the alphabet, three G's in a ring, call me Alvarez. My teacher used to say I need counselling, couldn't stop asking me what do you feel? There's so many old scars that they want to reveal. We got off on the wrong foot cause I don't want them to heal. Nah, but if you're looking for a psycho, you got one. I thought I had a screw loose but I lost one. 99 problems, money it is not one. My currency's Kenyan, that's in it for the long run. Tears on a pillow. Bruh, I shed so many tears on a pillow. I used to tell my teachers that nobody gets it. I don't know Clark but I know that I'm a kiddo cause my mummy ain't been home. Miss thinks I'm involved. Blame my environment, it made me a sicko. Furthermore, I should bring that bitch down to Streatham and they make us spend a day in the field like a widow. Kiddo, we seeing swords longer than a limo. My bros are blacksmiths like Aiden and Willow. Man, there's weapons over here. We're repping over here. I'm from the south side but they strutting over here. No telling if you're selling, hold up, betting over here. Get them over here. Who the *** is checking over here? Most my niggas are the ones applying pressure over here. *** a soul, I can get a nigga bleppered over here. What? We wanted more than some food and a strip or moving a brick. My niggas went to school with the rich and we were broke. Hiding crow in a Rubicon drink, which is funny cause that's how we put food in the fridge. Who am I? Someone trying to live his best life. I just want to take a pretty woman for a test drive. If I bring her to my room and I press I, guarantee she gonna see the force like an ex-wife. People tell me I'm a little bit barmy. For my army, I need a bottle of Bacardi. If it's me and a pouch on my doggie, shortly you're seeing two stars in the party. *** what you heard. I'm a top boy and I ain't giving man a turn. I don't want to know when pretty women want to flirt. Learned you can judge a nigga by the women that he curves. I love this game. I ain't lost focus. I'm a hit maker. If you haven't noticed, I could be the rapper with a message like you're hoping, but what's the point of me being the best if no one knows it? Brother, I'm a careful, humble, reckless, arrogant, extravagant nigga probably battling with manic depression. Man, I think I'm going mad again. It's like I'm happy for a second, then I'm sad again. And to my fans, the reason I could get to this, you're my drug, the instrumental, my therapist. Man, I need some therapy. My girl saying that she'll never leave. I'm scared she's gonna find a better me. Deep insecurities like what if I don't leave a legacy? Money, why they check for me? Mommy lost respect for me. I wish that we could be together, but that ain't how life works. I used to cry about my dad until my ***ing eyes burnt, nose running. You don't know nothing. Before I put a penny on the table, I provided for my family. Held my mother's hand through the agony. Hey, you ever fall asleep because you don't want to be awake in a way you're tired of the reality you face if you're thinking about doing it. Suicide doesn't stop the pain, you're only moving it. Life, then you ruin it. Thoughts of a world without you in it. Hiding. I ain't psycho, but my life is.