I reminisce, on the last Christmas I spent with my mom and my dad I'm so trippin', wishin' that I could go back To know what I'm missin', it's a mystery on how to forget I'm not a magician, I try fixin' shit that I can't Memories make me sick, I hope the past the hardest that it gets Mama said she drinkin' to forget, I told my mama save your son a sip Tryna slow my breath and get a grip, I think life is harder than in death There in heaven, I'm the one that's left I did things that I knew were wrong, but time just keeps movin' on No matter which way I run, I can't go back to the way it was Broke bones and I shed some blood, time to the few friends I love No matter which way I run, I can't go back to the way it was I can't go back to the way it was I can't go back to the way it was Hold this moment while you can, tell your people that you can Do it now while you still can I can't go back to the way it was, no I said, I can't go back to the way it was, no I can't go back to the way it was, no