DMC, we have a mid-30s male found down, unresponsive, possible overdose, substance unknown, pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's 8, he's intubated and we're baggin' him out BP 90 over PALP, patient is cool, pale and diuretic, has aspirated, GSC is 3, we'll update route, ETA 10 minutes As I fall deeper into a manic state, I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addictrace Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate, I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil, then I salivate Start off with the NyQuil, like I think I'll just have a taste, couple of sips of that, then I gradually graduate To a harder prescription drug called Valium, like yeah that's great, I go to just take one and I end up like having AIDS Now I need something in my stomach, cause I have an ache, maybe I'll *** a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak And you'd think that with all I have at stake, look at my daughter's face Mommy, something is wrong with dad I think, he's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me And all he does is eat Doritos and chills and he just fell asleep in his car, eating three musketeers in a rear seat Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know, feels like I've been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me and seems like I'm home and close the door Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie cause I don't and why I just don't know Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer? Got the devil in my ear, I've been sober a ***in' year And that ***er still talks to me, he's all I can ***in' hear So come on, we'll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers And maybe if I just drink half, I'll be half buzzed for half of the time Who's the mastermind behind that little line? With that kind of rationale, man, I got half a mind To have another half a glass of wine, sounds asinine, yeah, I know But I never had no problem with alcohol, I just look out for the wall, aim for the couch about to fall I miss the couch and down I go lookin' like a bouncy ball *** must've knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all Wow, what the *** happened last night, where am I? Man, *** am I hungover and goddamn I got a headache ***, half a Vicodin, why can't I? All systems ready for takeoff, please stand by Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know Feels like I've been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like somethin' takes over me Seems like a home and close the door Kinda feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place I do But I can't and I won't, say I try, but I know that's a lie Cause I don't and why I just don't know Like it, it's flash, it hits my stomach, then ah Couple of weeks go by, it ain't even like I'm gettin' high Now I need it just not to feel sick, yeah, I'm gettin' by Wouldn't even be takin' this *** if Deshawn didn't die Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Bruce or you use There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through It's 12 noon, ain't no harm in self-inducin' a snooze What else is new? *** it, what, what else is doin' your shoes? Now here I am three months later, full-blown relapse Just get high and shoot the kids, get home from school, home's relaxed And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac I need these pills to be able to sleep, so I take three naps Just to be able to function throughout the day Let's see, that's an ambient each nap, how many value? Three? And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep Okay, so now you see the reason how come he Has taken four years to just put out an album? We, see me and you, we almost had the same outcome He, cause that Christmas, you know the whole pneumonia thing? It was bologna, was it the methadone you think? But I hide your cordon, you hide inside your pornos Your PCR tape cases, with your ambience They are great places to hide them, ain't it? So you can lie to Haley I'm goin' Betty by Whitney, baby, goodnight Elena Go in the room and shut the bedroom door And wake up in an ambulance They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know Feels like I've been down this road before So lonely and cold, it's like somethin' takes over me Soon as I go home and close the door Kinda feels like deja vu I wanna get away from this place, I do But I can't and I won't, say I tried But I know that's a lie, cause I don't And why I just don't know Why I just don't know